I wait for the hours for the sun to scale the dark crags, a single shaft of sunlight to penetrate this chasm. But the deep shadow of this valley remains.
Let these roses prick my guilty soul and the thistles burn so that I can fake a life and call it living
The Economy of Sacrifice
In the era of Courtly Love or fin’amor, the story of Heloise and Abelard has its place.
The Economy of Sacrifice reimagines the viewpoint of 12th Century French, intellect Heloise d’Argentuile. Separated from her lover Peter Abelard, the scholar and theologian, their relationship is scandalized by the repressive community they inhabit.
The Church demands celibacy, temperance and devotion, here she takes Holy Orders, giving up her child in the knowledge she will never see him again. Alone within the confines of the Paraclet, she continues to correspond through a series of letters to Peter, Here, her passion continues to flourish, despite being accused of immorality and her love of love surpasses her religious devotion.
Her story is one of ‘closure and possibility’ Bonnie Wheeler. (Medieval Heroines in History and Legend) (Parts 1 & 2)